I have a cold - and a lot to be thankful for - like a three day weekend packed with a month of activities - and naps...
I took many naps. All is well, just this annoying thing....that is keeping me aware of how great it feels when I don't have a cold.
...but besides that - this weekend was full. We went to mountain ranges, and leaf peeped. We toured old cemetaries and had Barleigh practice sit and stays. Many pictures are able to be taken when she, sits and stays. This filled me with happiness in the moment ....and actually it is still hitting me with a smile. I am thankful that my sister and her family survived mostly untouched by the storm that was heading straight towards them. I am eleated that winds shift and projectories....are only ideas of what might be, sometimes uncertaninity is welcome...the fringes of possibilities and the blessings of change. Also I appreciated the reality that to have the joy of a miss... the distruction exhists all around you. Florida is a wild place. I ate a lot of apple-eey things - becuse we also went apple picking.... so I splurged and had an apple muffin, and a firtter....and many whole apples (and one really good pear). Now we have like a half peck of Ruby Reds - which were developed at Cornell and are high in vitamin c. I felt so good and so over full. We decorated our porch for Halloween, and I got all these vintage decrations for inside - so my house is looking like I might have been an elementry teacher in the 50s inside, and that there is a bone jazz band with a skelton dog singing along outside. And we have the big whismsy witch ghost again greeting folks
- more casper than anything else really. So I am so into this fun playful spirit with the holiday. I am also watching once again (a tradition) the Chilling Adventures of Sabrina - I adore their home. I have some things to work on, 1 fun playful project, 2 trainings I am getting into, a lot more to learn about so many things and mostly that keeps me motivated - also can I get an AMEN lol for not feeling overwhelmed - I am tired and if I am going to go to be de early or nap - I will do so and still get a lot of my shit acomplished because I have figured out how to do that. ...I mean can I truly get a Hell Yeah!
Oh yeah and my 1/2 marathon was on Sunday - I ran it with a cold and I just gave into the enjoymnet and totally loss any desire to achieve a pr. No this was not going to be the 12 min mile medium pace run .... instead, it was the get there 2 mins before the start, hit up almost every porta potty, enjoy the views, maybe walk...yep at mile 10 - I walked a little. And then when I decided I will run again - I ran right on through to the snack area and had the best chocolate milk.
Most of my weekend was in this floaty head cold space - it's an alternate state - but also a bit drippy and a bit low key energy wise. ....but damn those weekend views - it is October. I ran among the trees, I went seeking all the colorful vistas, we went top mountains and down to valleys, and visited the dead and found all of it ravishing.... I have been ravished ... take over by the views!
Lastly in tribute to beauty and what is sacred to me, my birth daughter's birthday was yesterday, she spent the weekend in Nashville and it has been lovely hearing a little bit about her adventures. There are many things about this day that are filled with bitter sweet memories but all of that is like the mud sitting so still at the bottom of a sparkling slow moving river.... the water just catching all the light and caring my mind off to the direction of where it will flow...
I understand this gratitude - runs deep.
I napped with the puppy...and the puppy cuddled...like she needs it to be fully refreshed... she is one of those types, the head on my sholder pup who thinks I will alwasy be able to pick her up and dance her to sleep. I want her to understand this is fleeting...but I don't know how to tell her - so I will preserve it as long as I can.
Good night - and if Iove you -thank you for making me feel all the feelings that I love feeling, thank you for being alive and getting to know me, thank you for sticking it out in life and sharing along the way, thanks for igniting my fire and attaracting my attention to you, thanks for the chance to gaze at life with eyes that feel the gleem of our reflection in one another - we got there .... we were able to find that inone another. This is it... the love... this is it.
