Knitted...Knotted...Mirror... Mirror...

I have had a lot of Jelly Belly jelly beans this week because I got a huge…. insane, actually… a large amount of them - 47 different flavors. I have enjoyed each one that I have treated myself to. We had a really fun dog play date last weekend and we have another one planned for this Saturday. In between I have been enjoying creating some fun projects and cuddling with the creatures who bring me so much peace and comfort. My closet has come together so nicely! It's what I

Last night I went to the Latern and Root - to find out more about this summoning letter and secret mission. The Lantern had a soso performer - did not spark my interst. For the first time ever though I was invited into the lower poriton - the Root! And I met my partners.... we have to get to the tomb and find the relic. So far we have rescued a frog/chicken and I am figuriong out the strengths and follies of my conpaions as we move towards the tomb. Babe (my donkicorn) -

This album has been so fun this last month or so - it just been a real fun treat to have it on and dance around to it. I am just thankful for all the feels it gives me.

Josh finally returned from his work trip last night. I missed him a whole bunch; reconnection is always so sweet. I have been anxious this last week. It’s something I am aware that I need to work through. I look forward to a future where the anxiousness will fade away. My Thursday thoughts are these: I want to feel safe and have rest. I will give it time for peace to fall in line. I need a protective bubble right now of quiet where no one but the most select few offers soft s

By Aleister Crowley

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It's been such an adventure lately - I would like our love to create more love for everyone but - when that is unrelaistic - the most important piece is what we create with one another, for each other. It is US in this life - togeather. We will work out out the rough edges and trample through the challenges in our unique blend of ways- I am emboldened by the heat of our passion and drive of our Wills.

OMG! I am in a new D&D group. It is a home-brewed campaign with a really in-depth storyline thanks to the mind of our DM. Based on a book trilogy he wrote, the world is vivid and features elements of steampunk, fantasy, Nordic gods, and a whole lot of magic. We use a large table with a physical map and miniatures. Speaking of characters, I am a half-wood elf with an Asian human father and a wood elf mother. I am a traveling bard who started in the carnival scene before going

The love I feel for you, Josh, is one of creation - what can we create togeather ? - this home, this family, this space for peace and the joy of adventure. This love I feel for you - has me achored in the rational and the orgization of everything in it's place. The love I feel for you, sweet husband - is one of protection - I want to protect you and I welcome your protection- the desire - this longing- if feels right and it feels safe- and here we can delight like children

It is Sunday - and I have put a lot of the house into its ease of living mode - it is about placement- see this is how I like it. Yesterday I am sure I did 100 flights of stairs, and sorted through items from the fourth floor all the way to the bottom - and found bits to donate. This is what I choose to do while I avoided the news - on the fringes I heard about another war we are in now, and well the news has been an onslaught for years now - like years and years and it's

So some days have passed and I am back to floating in calm waters. I am grateful. Things that I am thankful for currently: Time spent with Josh in our joy of union and light hearted conversations. Friendships forged in overcoming and moving through Obstacles. New opportunities to evaluate my inner landscape and what drives me forward. I am thankful for my reality of love through trial of fire and the lack of all that is mundane within - almost a half-century of life - it

Oh my gosh. Things have felt so heart felt today. I have had to appologize a lot for being grumpy and for letting people down with my short commings. It has not been enjoyable. I think with the compounding negativity - the news, social media, and all the various parts of myself being stretched thin I need a break. Not a vacation escape to celebrate birth and family, not a nap, a shift a big change. So I will attempt just that. This year has been so dramatic in every wa

We have been able to escape the freezing North by going South. The last few days have been Sun bursts, and Sun drenched, I am thankful for the break in the cold. But today is our last day- we leave tomorrow, there is a lot to get back to and do. It is a foggy start to the day- it is Thursday- Noah’s birthday, The plan is to let everyone sleep way in- head out to get brunch then explore the cost and scenic drives which will lead to a dinner picnic with sunset views. W

It feels like we are in hibernation mode. The house is still out of sorts through each day it does improve. I haven't worked out enough; I am feeling it for sure. I hope to get to the gym tonight. This last week has been about nursing old wounds reopened and that needed some additional mending. How many times in one year, 10 years, 20 years do I need to do this? A true curiosity in the art of healing. I am down for it - I want to improve in my abilities to receive and

We have survived the snow storm....so far. It has been treacherous - Josh almost got frost bite while out there briefly just shoveling a small path way for us to walk. I have been sick. Resting most of the day, medicated, soothed by cough drops, littering my blankets with some tissues. I am thankful the snow strorm took place on the weekend when I had no work to do. I did manange to make quikent soup. I am in love with being home durring a snow storm. I love the way

My sister texted me last night wondering if Ibhad any recordings- this is the first time since I talked to her on the phone in early June- that I have heard her say “hi”. ♥️♥️♥️

So lately, it’s been a lot of studying and concentration. I am trying to tip in the other direction tonight—I should probably put some effort into staying up late and doing some dancing. I worked hard yesterday, and then I had fun. I had an adventure this morning, and then I studied for five hours. Basically, it’s about that point I am trying to get to. There have been a lot of thoughts, but they’re tucked into a different place for another aim. I want to give myself a chance

Winter is here. We celebrated the solstice last week... it was dark yet intuitively light, as we lit a lot of candles, spoke over flames, and met with our friends virtually for a toast. Today is all post-Christmas feelings — with the swollen and the full — my fingers feel swollen with salt and sugar — and so today is a fast — a much-needed fast. It has been night after night with the gift of rich foods and company, and shared gluttony — but in good faith, for the longing of h

This isn't just a simple change; this is a full-on mission of refinement, realignment, and connection. Energy is moving! I am not a leaf blowing in the wind, bouncing off whatever surface happens to be closest. I am not a delicate snowflake falling randomly. Nope. I am willful. I am determined to listen, watch, learn, and direct. I'm smart, and I'm blessed with every tool I need to keep building a world that doesn't just hold me, but actively serves and enhances my Will and t

Time is flying by because I have been so very busy. I am now into my new job—week 3! And there is snow on the ground, and we are just a few weeks from Yule and Christmas. When I am not working hard at learning my new job, I have been studying and prepping for an exam. A lot is going on, and we have not put up the tree yet. I plan to do that this weekend. Everything has been a whirlwind of new things, coming fast, yet I am staying centered within myself and believing in myself