The best way to love me while I am alive ~> this way.

There is little sleeping...well, I hope soon to be sleeping~but not until I share some feelings that have been manhandled by a lot of thoughts, then gently massaged into their current state. My feelings are mine: to feel as I feel them, to use them to move me~jettison forward—for meaning making, for pattern making, for energy shaking. And I want to move~more like leap with great confidence, balancing the fall, like a professional Olympic diver into a pool of life’s murky water that never fully wets me all the way through.

These last few months have been a whirlwind for me. Death has touched me hardest this year.

If this is the way of the world...the other side of life~it highlights the notion of “be here now.”

Right now, I am riding off the vapors of a full moon eclipse. My friends and I created a beautifully fun evening for people to get weird, vulnerable, and brave. It was a real treat to watch the process unfold to completion. And the process isn’t even fine-tuned, but the reality it created for us ...feels full of potential.

Like, what can’t we do with this love and with these beautiful relationships?

It’s a gorgeous display of stars bursting into the sky. I am there watching- laughing and dancing- that’s what my relationships are doing to me.

What is most essential and interesting to me right now is: how will I balance the ebbs and flows of so many vibrant connections? Never in my life have I been so fortunate. I feel like my heart is learning a lot. I’m learning about building positive connections. I will invest my heart there -this is important- there needs to be understanding.

I am in love with life- because I love you. And you love me- and so we want to connect- so we create ways to do that. And each time new moments to fall in love become statistically more feasible. When we invest in fun - we celebrate life. There is nothing more sacred.

This is the holy grail to my heart.

My love language is in action.