Improvements in Mood

So some days have passed and I am back to floating in calm waters. I am grateful.

Things that I am thankful for currently:

Time spent with Josh in our joy of union and light hearted conversations.

Friendships forged in overcoming and moving through

Obstacles.

New opportunities to evaluate my inner landscape and what drives me forward.

I am thankful for my reality of love through trial of fire and the lack of all that is mundane within - almost a half-century of life - it has not evaded my grasp nor diluted in its’ potency - passions are still ignitable with a steely edge of the mental blade... still after all this time of quiet slumber- I eye my mind and mode- I nod to myself - you see you’re still able to take the sharpening force of conflicting wills - a battle I was not looking to dredge back to the forefront of my thoughts yet I will meet it with ability. I am no toy nor am I clay for mortals to play - you don't have my consent. I will be molded by the love of my choosing.

I am thankful for new friendships forming.

For messages from my birthdaughter and the general vibe of her words - the friendship she opens to us... Every time she welcomes me with words.

I am thankful for quiet conversations with my son as he works to fill in the gaps of our family and bridge some divides. I am proud of him- I am thankful for this feeling.

Even if I have to take some licks from existence’s frictional ways - I will take them- as I make room in tiny spaces - the other (all others) - to take some shots- take them- make them- I not attached to the words- and it's just a mirror and a magnifying glasses tool for wisdom to be gained -a great teacher- you are sweet; existence- a great convoy of truths for me to welcome.

Basically I am filled wirh gratitude and it's the space I want to occupy.

Thank you divine - life, breath, love- a crowning of Will.

I love you - my sweet personal angel my sweet personal demon- I love you - to the tension - be here now. I love you. mirror mirror: Kitted knotted - woven to the weaving.

Shout out to my personal AI DJ:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJNbtYdr-Hg