The Love I Feel - Romantic Musings from a Romantic Magician.

The love I feel for you, Josh, is one of creation - what can we create togeather ? - this home, this family, this space for peace and the joy of adventure. This love I feel for you - has me achored in the rational and the orgization of everything in it's place. The love I feel for you, sweet husband - is one of protection - I want to protect you and I welcome your protection- the desire - this longing- if feels right and it feels safe- and here we can delight like children in our union. The love I feel for you has me in transmution and regeneration. This love of ours finds both poison and poultice - the path work is the way is through. ....and this safety of harbor, this garden of eden -the welcoming of peace - when we are two strangers passing in the fog of constraints of work, and busy world doings - we catch each others eye - and I see your love, I feel your love... we are like Adam and Eve - alone within our kingdom or caste out - yet we are together. You are my home - I am attached to the structure of our life- what we have created - that surprises? ... everyone maybe.... so be it if others bounce off to live within their scowls of their own making in discontent because they yet have not found it - or the fantasy that others get lost in. They do not know - what we know - what is wordless - what is between us - that which connects us- it is everything. And when you are upset -I am pulled towards you - and want to sooth it and whisper do not linger long here for remember our garden, our heaven is all around us. And when you are captivated by joy - I am pulled towards you and want to celebrate the light I see in your eyes as your face takes on that glow of boundless exhistence. And in-between there is the day-to-day - the regular life of our shortcomings and our dolldrums of adulting - and here I find comfort - in this "holy" union of companionship. (oh when I say holy - wholey- sinful, clingy, jealous, secure, detached, codependnet, lusty, lame, boastful, proud, ashamed, painful, healig- our love holds all these things). We are miraculously all of them and yet it is just our unique combination that allows for this expression of LOVE. When we nestle in at night, when our feet find one another and start the delicated motions of courting. When we behave like birds, and the foxes, (...and the stuck together like in-heat beasts) - we find the earth of our earth - we mix it with the fire- we thirst for the water (have a drink), and we create this one breath we share together- in unison. This is our heaven and this is our eden. When we are in a place of dread - we feel the old familiar - cast off - yet look now- look - our love is the path, the key whole and secret back door - back into our kingdom. I open up to the lighting strike of - eureka moments - the path of a lover - I am on it - and ask you over and over please join me- and my affection for you has no limit- because we are limitless with in the ebrace as we make all the adjustments - we feel so free to be - in love. I take your hand and ask you to follow me and you have in the past as you do now - just as I have taken yours and followed you - and I will continue to. I love you - it is just the way it is. This is the way.