The past is the past. I am not fully my past, but yet the past works it's self into my present. I see my mother and my grandmother looking at me when I look at myself. I see myself in my children yet respect that they are their own selves working through self-realization of their own. I feel joy and pain over the past. I feel strong and able to connect with others who have been through hard times. My history is full of moments where others missed opportunities to rise to greatness to help create peace and harmony...I see myself similarly, missing opportunities. My past is full of deep connections and triumphant moments where we overcame all that was against us. We are here now. The past was the path that got us here. My history is whole, all parts make up vital aspects, I regret nothing though I may feel the burn, sting, and pleasure of consequence.
The present is where I am working hard to create a beautiful future, to know my self deeper, to work with what I have to make things a bit nicer for all of us. I am whole now just as complete as I was then, and as whole as I will be tomorrow yet different as each day brings new revelations of my wholeness.
My ideal future is focused on having options. To me, this is freedom. I am energetic, creative, capable of being of service to others, and kind to myself...I am whole.
For me, these last few weeks have been incubating, ....heaven. This is our blessing....with the respect that congruently it is a hell reality for many, the pandemic has many faces.
I have been enjoying the Mariya Gancheva's Kundalini Yoga video series. Fresh, light-filled, breath....energetic, warming body motions and poses.
Today I walked 5 miles, met a crane...was moved to get some help in cleaning up the Krum Kill, it really needs to be cared for, it has been mistreated with garbage. I have tracked down with the help of my neighborhood app that the section I was in was part of the town of Guilderland. I am going to reach out to them tomorrow to report all the trash that has been dumped, furniture, tires... Who is caring for this watershed?
I'm making stuffed eggplant tonight, I watched Myokos live cooking show yesterday, and she really inspired me! I am also attempting to make Seitan Steaks and have them marinating all night to be grilled tomorrow.
Peace and blessings to all.